Archive for March, 2008

ZaZa Debauchery, Celtics, LeMonde Weighs In & a Taste of CoCo

Sunday, March 23rd, 2008

Sunday smiles after a number of slammed, over the top days in Dallas. Listening to the Catalyst podcast, an emergent church site, that has strains of tantalizingly real faith flowing through me as I wrestle with my bdsm, freakazoid obsessions.

Where to begin? First off, the Celtics and Mavericks game kicked major steroid-injected ass. KG is the hardest working man in hoops. I have to agree with dickhead Mike Lupica who observed you don’t appreciate Garnett until you see him in person. He works every single possession, at both ends of the court.

Great wine shop, Crush. Up on Knox, methinks. Sharp wine-wisdom dude and a Pinot, “Four Graces”, that proves Oregon puts out something other than rain-soaked, spineless liberals.

Hotel ZaZa, trendily shallow on a scale that appeals to one of my ADD-addled consumeristic, what’s currently hot persuasion. I personally think shallow is an art form and ZaZa delivers. It inspired my little Chi O Norwegian angel to strip down to her Chico’s purple long coat and pointy heals and get obscenely freaky. She’d had enough wine that she unpuckered as I gleefully wiggled my tongue up her ass. She showed me a little urethra love with a Q-tip (that’s unsafe kiddies.. don’t do it..unless you’re wine-buzzed and don’t give a shit) and brought her slender finger into my man-cave which led me to a Jesus shout out, re-access my Navy master’s degree in profanity, body spasming orgasm that absolutely transported me to that little meadow of wonder that makes sex so eye-poppingly cool.

Fast break finish (In honor of my Celtics)-Charmingly coquettish comment from Jennifer LeMonde which left me with the same gee-whiz arched eyebrows that I had as I watched Jason Kidd dish on the fast break. She sooo frightens me….in a drool of anticipation way…And CoCo (Nite Flirt goddess) spinning a cuckold fantasy that gave me a taste of her in a way I wasn’t expecting. She takes you down a delightfully sluttish, sinful road…I salute her..and sick shit in general. It gives me hope. OK..back to recovery..maybe.

Teeth Clenched Waiting for the Dildo

Saturday, March 15th, 2008

I am actually in a groove where I am mostly in real recovery from my sexual addiction. And this is why I want to be an addiction therapist/pastor/counselor at some point. So I can step across the room, grab the poor suffering schlub by the neck and slam him/her up against the wall, nuzzle my head up to his or her ear and whisper…”Do you have any idea how fucking painful and horrific this whole process will be. Your life will feel at times as if you are devoid of hope. One of the few illusions of fun and joy you had through your acting out will be taken away and you will be plunged into a black hole, that eventually lifts into a gray, mindless, numbed-out land called….recovery.”

It’s really that much fun, folks. Not only have I reduced sexual weirdness, I’ve also chosen to reduce my booze intake to a glass of wine a week, at most. Why couldn’t I at least be a 17th century Jesuit priest so I could at least hoist a musket and get to kill someone or many someones as part of my Jesuitical conversion process that spread so much love and joy….

Alcohol triggers my sexual obsessions so after one glass of red last night, this morning I am vibrating with the need to have naughty bits of business done unto me. It led to many brief online sighs this a.m. while alternating NPR and White Hinterlands…love this gal……so before I jump into the shower and re-enroll in the Recovery Shit Brigade I thought I’d do a shout out to all the lasses who led me to the aforementioned sighs…

Mistress Alicia of NYC. Hot new web site. I had one phone session with her and her evil intelligence seeps down the line. Penny Flame…succubus sweetie of Kink.com.. Isobel Wren who is appearing on Kink.com and is elevating her schoolgirl innocence into the realm of submissive icon for the early 21st century…a Nite Flirt girl, Come to CoCo, is brilliant. Voice, mind and after one call a while back I am fearful and excited about being ensnared in her witty charm and my twisted needs. Ms. Jennifer LeMonde, former domme at Rapture and also the star of a new web site that makes me want to be in the presence of someone who would be more vicious than I could handle. And since I’m headed to Big D next week for the Mavericks and Celtics, I sooooo(think the intonation of Dr. Cox on “Scrubs”) want to impale myself again on the sounds of Domina Athena.

Quick sidebar that I hope is not too intrusive. The day after I had my sounds experience with the drop dead gorgeous, I drool just thinking of her lady in question…I was having a little lunch at ‘The It’s All Good Cafe” and noticed her walking her dog…She is stylish, leggy and breathtaking….as for the dog…I just don’t remember..

Recovery…there are moments of emotional and spiritual peace and tiny victory dances and something that is simply more connected to the real and the now. Just not this particular morning.

Peace to us all my brothers and sisters.